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What radical courage does it take to love in the face of hate? Through portraiture and personal narratives highlighting joy, belonging, found family and meaningful romantic and platonic relationships, KBIA’s Alphabet Soup challenges the notion that Missouri’s LGBTQ+ community is a monolith.Tucked away within the amalgamation of letters that makes up the LGBTQ+ community and the complex identities each represents is joy: rebellious, resistant, radiant. If you have a story you would like to share, visit https://tinyurl.com/LGBTQJoy or contact news@kbia.org.Created by Bailey Stover.

Olivia Wood: “Until the world becomes less binary, I try and stick in it."

Olivia Wood, who is queer and nonbinary, holds a record on Wednesday, April 3, 2024, at Hitt Records in Columbia. “Since I stopped trying to explain myself, I've never been hyper fixated on a label anymore. I just love who I love, and I express myself how I so wish to express myself,” Wood said. “I fall somewhere on the queer spectrum. I fall somewhere on the trans spectrum. It just kind of depends, and it doesn't matter that much to me. And I know it probably matters to a lot of people because people love boxes. I hate boxes because one box is fine one day, and then the next day it's the totally wrong box. And then we're back at square one with like, back in middle school, like, ‘What am I what am I doing?’ ‘Who, what and why?’ So, in terms of identities, I've always embraced more fluidity than anything.”
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Olivia Wood, who is queer and nonbinary, holds a record on Wednesday, April 3, 2024, at Hitt Records in Columbia. “Since I stopped trying to explain myself, I've never been hyper fixated on a label anymore. I just love who I love, and I express myself how I so wish to express myself,” Wood said. “I fall somewhere on the queer spectrum. I fall somewhere on the trans spectrum. It just kind of depends, and it doesn't matter that much to me. And I know it probably matters to a lot of people because people love boxes. I hate boxes because one box is fine one day, and then the next day it's the totally wrong box. And then we're back at square one with like, back in middle school, like, ‘What am I what am I doing?’ ‘Who, what and why?’ So, in terms of identities, I've always embraced more fluidity than anything.”

Olivia Wood is a non-binary college student who falls “somewhere on the queer spectrum.” They spoke about growing up in a rural area, and how going away to college has helped them grow and better understand their gender beyond the binary.

Alphabet Soup shares LGBTQ+ Missourians’ stories through portraiture and personal narratives.

Oliva Wood: I grew up in a very rural part of Missouri, so a lot of my journey is just kind of like repression, I think.

I came out in seventh grade because I switched schools, and I started going here in Columbia, and that's when I kind of learned that there were things other than just “straight.”

I was at the fair one time, and I was showing my baby goat, and one of the girls that I had considered a friend was showing one of her cattle, and she came up to me and she was like, “You will never believe what I just heard,” and she was like, “So and so” – who's a girl – “was kissing another girl.”

Olivia Wood’s stuffed giraffe, Charles, rests atop a stool on Wednesday, April 3, 2024, at Uprise Bakery in Columbia. Wood said they found Charles randomly at work, but the stuffed animal coincidentally matches perfectly with one their partner has had for years. “You, I feel like at times, might think that you're the only queer person you know, but the truth is, you're just the only one that you know you know,” Wood said. “There are people out there for you that would support you, but it's a journey. And everyone's journey starts at a different time, so it's never too late either.”
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Olivia Wood’s stuffed giraffe, Charles, rests atop a stool on Wednesday, April 3, 2024, at Uprise Bakery in Columbia. Wood said they found Charles randomly at work, but the stuffed animal coincidentally matches perfectly with one their partner has had for years. “You, I feel like at times, might think that you're the only queer person you know, but the truth is, you're just the only one that you know you know,” Wood said. “There are people out there for you that would support you, but it's a journey. And everyone's journey starts at a different time, so it's never too late either.”

And I was like, “Oh,” I didn't realize that it was wrong.

But she goes, “I just can't accept that” and she just stomped away.

That hurt me in ways that I didn't know it would hurt because I was young.

I met a non-binary person, and it was kind of like – when I came out for the first time – it was kind of like, you can do this? This isn't just like a thing that I see on the internet and the comment section is hateful and terrible.

But I met someone, and they were just so normal and like, respected within their community. I was like, this is a thing that people can do? And it's okay to do it?

And after that, I just kind of started thinking I was like, I mean, “it would make sense.”

And my partner and I had a conversation was like, “If it would make you more comfortable than why not.”

He's like, “If you feel like you're living, like, in spite of femininity, then why be feminine at all?”

I was like, “But I don't want to abandon it,” and he was like, “Then don't,” and I think that's kind of where my fluidity comes from.

It was like, I don't have to pick anything, and I can just kind of do it all – and it's fine.

"When it's convenient, I am a girl, and when I don't have to worry about it, when it's safe – then I am me."
Olivia Wood

He's one of the first people that kind of recognized when I started to question my gender, and he is the first person to start to use more neutral language for me before I even asked him to.

He just made that switch, and it didn't, like it didn't click with me for like, a few weeks. I was like, “Why are you doing this?” And he's like, “Because it seems to make you happier.”

Today, I feel like a little girl. Yesterday, I didn't. Gender confuses me. It's always confused me.

For a while, I always thought that I was a tomboy, and I feel like that's how most of society would probably see me now – is just kind of like a slightly masculine woman.

And to a degree, I'm okay with that – like, although I kind of exist, somewhere in the subtext – until the world becomes less binary, I try and stick in it because there are just times when it's convenient.

And I feel like as much as that sucks, it is the truth. When it's convenient, I am a girl, and when I don't have to worry about it, when it's safe – then I am me.

Stickers adorn Olivia Wood’s computer on Wednesday, April 3, 2024, at Uprise Bakery in Columbia. Wood said the stickers represent their interests and favorite places. Wood has also used writing as a creative outlet for many years and said their laptop itself is especially important to them. “I try and find joy in everything that I can,” Wood said. “And while my queerness is very important to me, sometimes it's not the forefront of me, nor is it at the forefront of my joy.”
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Stickers adorn Olivia Wood’s computer on Wednesday, April 3, 2024, at Uprise Bakery in Columbia. Wood said the stickers represent their interests and favorite places. Wood has also used writing as a creative outlet for many years and said their laptop itself is especially important to them. “I try and find joy in everything that I can,” Wood said. “And while my queerness is very important to me, sometimes it's not the forefront of me, nor is it at the forefront of my joy.”

Bailey Stover is a multimedia journalist who graduated in May 2024. She is the creator and voice of "Alphabet Soup," which runs weekly on KBIA.
Rebecca Smith is an award-winning reporter and producer for the KBIA Health & Wealth Desk. Born and raised outside of Rolla, Missouri, she has a passion for diving into often overlooked issues that affect the rural populations of her state – especially stories that broaden people’s perception of “rural” life.
Nick Sheaffer is the photo editor for KBIA's Alphabet Soup. He graduated with a Bachelor's in Journalism from the University of Missouri in May 2024.
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